So I figured since I have been checking this site obsessively it might be good to post here.
Hi, I’m Amber Jade, you can call me either or both, I basically respond to anything. I’m 42 and disabled. I’m never sure what’s an overshare because I tend to be too open even with strangers so I’ll try to keep it more bare bones and if anyone has questions feel free to ask anything.
I started having problems in my late teens doing things that seemed normal to me but were not. I just thought all teenagers acted out at some point, but I didn’t realize I was acting out more than most. After some extremely traumatic experiences in my early 20s I went to see someone to get help and was diagnosed with BPD. Not much later I was put on disability. My diagnosis was changed likely because I got more impulse control as I got older and wasn’t acting out anymore.
I met my partner in 2006 and started dating him later that year. We’ve been together ever since, and I’m finally getting unofficially married to him hopefully this year. I say that because it won’t be official in the eyes of the state, but I don’t need that and I’m scared it would somehow affect my ability to get to see all my doctors and get medications.
I ended up with physical issues as well. One of the meds I took for years I believe caused hypothyroidism which is now Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis an autoimmune disorder. And I got diagnosed with cervical osteoarthritis when I was 30. Other stuff too especially since last February. I like to say I hit the genetic lottery for problems lol.
As you might surmise with all my issues I’m always looking for things to distract me. I love getting outside and hiking when possible. I always have a camera with me when I do. The camera on my phone is better than the one I own, but I love to use the other one anyhow. I’ve been thinking about trying to make a darkroom and getting a 35mm so I can develop my own photos. I prefer that option to downloading photos honestly. I tend to like the older ways of doing things.
I was an avid reader until several years ago. Going off a medication I had taken since my 20s seems to have given me back parts of my life but taken some too. I was starting to relearn how to concentrate long enough to read again, and it was working. When my health took a downturn last year I had to take a break from it. I don’t do online books at all. I have to have the physical copy.
I have two cats I adore although I miss having a dog around. I don’t want to stress my older cat so having a dog is on pause for now.
I got into painting stuff that my partner 3D printed and was actually very good at it, but his 3D printer was having problems and he hasn’t gotten around to fixing it yet.
I love to write, but I have to be in a certain headspace to write poetry. I have a book I’ve been trying to write since like 2013, but every time I start I have to start over because it seems like my style has changed, so I have a lot of prologues and chapters 1 and 2. I’m not giving up on getting the whole thing out eventually, but I’m a little sad that it will probably be an ebook because I really don’t like that format.
I picked up a VFT from a store that my family and I visit every year for Xmas. I came here to try to see if I could save it, and that’s what I’m trying to do now. I also got interested in trying my hand at growing carnivorous plants, so I’ll probably be asking a lot more questions and figured I’d post here since I’m planning to be around a lot.
I like to say I can’t make a long story short because I’m Irish, so yeah all my posts turn into novellas. Like this one probably. I can never tell until I post because I’m writing on my phone so apologies.
Oh, and I absolutely love dressing up! This past year I spent a lot of time trying to put together a steampunk outfit from Temu and Amazon, and I think it still needs work, but I wore it for a few things in October for Halloween, and I got a lot of compliments from people who knew what steampunk was. I’m thinking about trying to make a cosplay of a video game character I love next. I’m also very into video games. They allow me to escape into different worlds like books used to do. So yeah that’s me.
A pic of my steampunk just because I love it and a normal one (and yes I also love tattoos, but I desperately need some coverups)
ETA - welp this post skipped right past novella to novel lol. I don’t expect anyone to read it anyhow.